i want it.

“ It’s spring fever. That is what the name of it is. And when you’ve got it, you want — oh, you don’t quite know what it is you do want, but it just fairly makes your heart ache, you want it so!"
~Mark Twain

ugly stepsister's lament

The Stepsister's Lament from Cinderella (the one with Brandy)

We haven't stopped singing songs from musicals for the last couple of hours which is probably making Rachel's neighbors love us a whole lot, and when we got to this version of Cinderella, I never realized how much more I relate to the ugly stepsisters than Cinderella

Why should a fellow want a girl like her a frail and fluffy beauty why can't a fellow ever once prefer a solid girl like me

She's a frothy little bubble with a flimsy kind of charm and with very little trouble I could break her little arm.

Oh, oh why would a fellow want a girl like her so obviously unusual why can't a fellow ever once prefer a usual girl like me

Her cheeks are a pretty shade of pink, but not any pinker than roses

Her skin may be delicate and soft, but not any softer than a doe's is

Her neck is no whiter than a swan's

She's only as dainty as a daisy

She's only as graceful as a bird!

So why is the fellow going crazy?

oh why would a fellow want a girl like her,

a girl who's merely lovely, why can't a fellow ever once prefer a girl who's merely me

She's a frothy little bubble with a frilly sort of air And with very little trouble I could pull out all her hair!

oh why would a fellow want a girl like her, a girl who's merely lovely, why can't a fellow ever once prefer a girl who's merely me

What's the matter with the man, what's the matter with the man, what's the matter with the man?!!

"no hope no love no glory, no happy ending..."

Just looking through old pictures and feeling sorry for myself :(  Why is it that the people who are never supposed to let you down always end up disappearing?

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I'm awake and this is going to be a rambling mess because my computer says it's 5:59 am.  Since my computer is on new york time that means it's actually 3:59 am in boise and I am awake!  I'm having one of those celebratory nights when I have officially made it past all my mid terms and foreseeable papers and basically get to live stress free for about 14 and a half days!  I took a long bubble bath and am basically finished reading this:

My mom is going to be so happy.  She's been begging me to read it for like a year and I can finally say that after about 15 boring chapters and 35 skimmed pages, I finally found myself totally interested and couldn't put it down.  Literally.  I spent 2 hours in the bath and refilled like 4 times to keep it warm.  Now I'm watching this:

Possibly the greatest show EVER made.  It may seem strange that I'm still awake and invested in gilmore things and blogging when my computer is reminding me that the sun is rising and the east coast is waking right about now.  But I am not opening the bar tomorrow for the first time in a hundred years so I have the fabulous feeling of knowing I can sleep as long as I want or until 5:30 when I have to go back to work.  I'm also craving one of these:

If burger king was closer there is a good chance I would be hitting up the drive thru right about now.  But I will settle for Gilmore Girls.  Kirk just came on for the first time.  Does anyone remember Kirk before Kirk was Kirk?

"Rorie!  Try a plum, they're better than sex!"  Miss Pattie (GG)
"I'm attracted to pie that doesn't mean I feel the need to date pie..."  Lorelai (GG)

:) Peace out yo!  Wish me goodnight, I'm going to attempt to sleep!

"Life's candy and the suns a ball of butter!"

Things that are making this week great!!

1.  Finished my powerpoint presentation AND my museum critique paper.  Now just one midterm tomorrow and I'm home free for SPRING BREAK and NYC in two weeks :)

2.  Wore short sleeves AND sandals on the same day!  Here comes Spring!!

3.  The buds on the trees at school are opening and lawn mowing has commenced!

4.  Found a jewelry seller on Etsy that I want to live with so she can make me stuff all day long.

5.  Bought this!  My first vintage piece that didn't belong to my grandma!

6.  And this from the jewelry girl I now consider my newbestfriend

7.  Decided to plan my first party!  Starting with this lovely lady's 3rd birthday!

8.  Having "happy hour" with Cass in about an hour that will probably overly intoxicate us with diet coke and calamari.

9.  Officially counting down to NYC (12 days)

10.  Having this for my late late late night snack

the end :)

30 Day Song Challenge

30 Day Song Challenge

So I saw this on a random blog and decided to do it.  Shows ya how bored I am...but I also like writing this kind of stuff down so that when i'm 80 and can't remember my name, i can read this and remember what my favorite song was this year :)

Day 01 - Your favorite song:  "To Be With You" Mr. Big

Day 02 - Your least favorite song:  "Bed Rock" Lil Wayne

Day 03 - A song that makes you happy:  "Sympathetic Vibrations" The Paper Raincoat

Day 04 - A song that makes you sad: "Try Sleeping With A Broken Heart" Alicia Keys

Day 05 - A song that reminds you of someone:  "Battlefield" Jordin Sparks

Day 06 - A song that reminds of you of somewhere:  "Dance" Elisa

Day 07 - A song that reminds you of a certain event:  "Crash" Dave Matthews Band

Day 08 - A song that you know all the words to:  "Sweetness" Jimmy Eat World

Day 09 - A song that you can dance to: "For Your Entertainment" Adam Lambert

Day 10 - A song that makes you fall asleep:  "Cannonball" Damien Rice

Day 11 - A song from your favorite band:  "Work" Jimmy Eat World

Day 12 - A song from a band you hate:  "Lips of an Angel" Hinder

Day 13 - A song that is a guilty pleasure: "Crazy Bitch" Buckcherry

Day 14 - A song that no one would expect you to love:  "Behind Blue Eyes" Fred Durst

Day 15 - A song that describes you:  "Rhiannon" Fleetwood Mac

Day 16 - A song that you used to love but now hate:  "Collide" Howie Day

Day 17 - A song that you hear often on the radio:  "Empire State of Mind" Jay Z

Day 18 - A song that you wish you heard on the radio:  "Ferris Wheels" I Am Kloot

Day 19 - A song from your favorite album:  "Lights" Journey

Day 20 - A song that you listen to when you’re angry: "Why" Mandi Perkins

Day 21 - A song that you listen to when you’re happy:  "You've Got The Love" Florence & the Machine

Day 22 - A song that you listen to when you’re sad:  "What If You" Joshua Radin

Day 23 - A song that you want to play at your wedding:  "Take Me Home Tonight" Eddie Money

Day 24 - A song that you want to play at your funeral: "Dream" Priscilla Ahn

Day 25 - A song that makes you laugh: "Wannabe" Spice Girls

Day 26 - A song that you can play on an instrument:  "A Kiss To Build A Dream On"

Day 27 - A song that you wish you could play:  "Theme from Sabrina"

Day 28 - A song that makes you feel guilty:  "Need You Now"  Lady Antebellum

Day 29 - A song from your childhood:  "Back In Black" AC/DC

Day 30 - Your favorite song at this time last year:  "Maneater" Nelly Furtado

OK. so i know my life has been in a constant state of confusion and apprehension for the future and you would think that in my quest to silence my worries and doubts, that i would make some sort of effort to find a decision. Even a tentative one. Instead, i have now added the idea of california to my long list of uncertainties. CALIFORNIA. sure, i love it. southern california takes a very high 2nd place on my list of foreseeable future places to live. Sarah is there with a brand new baby for me to keep a safe distance from. it's basically warm year round which is all i ask for out of life. but where did the idea come from???? it literally just popped into my head today while i was sitting at lunch with caroline. it's always been an option of course, but a long shot because, if i could move somewhere, it's going to be new york city, right? RIGHT?? (I'm actually asking here because now i have no idea) What is wrong with me?? I feel like i'm graduating from high school all over again instead of from college. so my current options are to

1.  Stay put.

2.  New York...and do...???

3.  California...and do...???

4.  Travel. 

hummm  maybe i can let all my stuff stay put, travel, and hopefully figure out what i should do...maybe i just answered my own question...

peace out yo!  gotta go look into some travel options :)

boys.

he asked me today why i was so sad.
i said it was because of boys.
he said i should stop letting boys make me sad and look for a man.
apparently men don’t make women sad.
i just stared at him.
i wanted to tell him that i had found the boy that i wished could be a man.
i wanted to tell him that everything would be all right if HE would be a man.
but all he will be is a boy.
so i just stared at him.

listen

I love love love this song!  JJ Heller - Your Hands

when my world is shaking, heaven stands
when my heart is breaking
i never leave your hands
your hands
your hands that shape the world
are holding me
they hold me still

The video is really good.  The way her husband looks at her while she sings is amazing.  I love discovering or rediscovering music.  Especially at a time when I really need to hear something.  Sometimes I think that God answers my prayers in the form of music.  There is a lot that I'm going through right now.  I don't always feel like there is anyone that I can turn to.  Then I hear songs like this and I think that for just a moment, I'm not going through these things alone. 

i am trying to understand
how to walk this weary land
make straight the paths that crooked lie
oh Lord before these feet of mine