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so i'm not sure about the rest of the country, but my little boise town has had the MOST beautiful autumn ever.  ever.  but, sadly, today i woke up to a thick layer of frost and slushy rotting leaves on the ground.  my favorite time of the year is slowly being replaced but my least favorite time of year.  so in honor of the fantastic weather i have been blessed with...

i made a fall soundtrack! 

shocker.

i basically spent more hours on itunes than i did on homework so this is the inevitable result. 

some old, some new.  they all make me happy :)  and are getting me through some poor decisions i have been making lately.  (i think my problem solving skills are burned out from too many classes, leading me to not think anything through beforehand).  possibly poor decision #1...spending a crap load of money on itunes :)

1.  "Breathe Again" - Sara Bareilles
2.  "My Heart" (accoustic version) - The Perishers
3.  "Begin Again" - Colbie Caillat
4.  "Zebra" - Beach House
5.  "The Park" - Feist...(Where was this song when i lived in NYC???)
6.  "You Can Close Your Eyes" - Carly Simon...(LOOOVE this one)
7.  "Strip Me" - Natasha Bedingfield
8.  "Change of Time" - Josh Ritter
9.  "Birthday" - Kings of Leon...(cuz it was my birthday ;)
10.  "The End" - Allison Weiss
11.  "Overboard" - Ingrid Michaelson
12.  "Skinny Love" - Bon Iver
13.  "Tornado" - Jonsi
14.  "White Blank Page" - Mumford and Sons
15.  "The Outsiders" - Needtobreathe
16.  "Raise Your Glass" - Pink...(this one puts me in a good mood no matter what!)
17.  "Sweet Disposition" - The Temper Trap
18.  "Don't You Wanna Stay" - Jason Aldean w/ Kelly Clarkson...(normally i'm not big into country but this is. so. good.)

Soooo here's to fall!  I love it.  I will miss it when it's gone.  but i know it will be back soon. 

love!!
me

here we go again...

here's the line to the song i'm listening to right now...

"here we go again, I kind of want to be more than friends.  so take it easy on me, I'm afraid you're never satisfied"

Brilliant.

My itunes is better than any psychic. 

Do you ever get that feeling that something is on the verge of happening?  I do, and then it does.  And it usually isn't very good.

The last time I had this feeling was a few years ago.  There were 2 different boys involved.  I wasn't, for the record, dating either one.  No matter what anyone says...There were also 3 different girls.  One of them was me.  And I knew, I just knew, this was all going to blow up in my face.  And it did.  And I was guilty...in a way.  I was NOT dating either of them.  But I wasn't trying very hard to not date them either.

So here's the feeling again.  And since I tend to be right on when it comes to these things, I'm kind of terrified.  And a little excited.  And kind of guilty.  This time there are just 2 boys involved and only one girl.  Me.  I am not, for the record, dating either of them.  But I may be trying hard to.  Or trying hard to date one of them, and the other one is getting caught in the middle.  Here is the problem for me:  I'm not sure which one is which. 

How awful am I??? 

I want to state that one of these boys has hurt me, alot, in the past.  In fact, the next song itunes has given me tonight is also a pretty good match...

"I know i can't take one more step towards you, cuz all that's waiting is regret...I've learned to live, half alive, and now you want me one more time.  And who do you think you are running around leaving scars?  Collecting your jar of hearts, tearing love apart."

I literally feel myself balancing, precariously high, and I know I'm about to fall.  I don't want to lose either one.  But I know that I only want one.  And by only getting one, I will have to lose the other. 

Something big is coming, I can really feel it.
Good thing neither of them live in the same state as me, or eachother for that matter. 

love & stuff...lots of stuff...

:)

lovin...

1.  My Roman history teacher.  Not in that way silly.  He's smart.  Sooo smart.
2.  "Begin Again" by Colbie Caillat -... "This is not the way that it should end, it's the way it should begin..."
3.  Pumpkin Pie pop tarts.  In.love.
4.  Season 1 of Gilmore Girls.  It will always be the best one :)
5.  Having gigantic crushes on doctors, firemen, the fabulously tattooed guy that sits in front of me in Roman history, and the boise state wide receiver.  Who cares that they have no idea I exist?
6.  Jainah.  She's like a real little person now. 
7.  Pistachios.  I have no idea why I never tried them before.  Better than doritos.
8.  OPI nail polish in "the color to watch".  Pretty...
9.  NYX eyeshadow in "flamingo".  It's kind of holographic?
10.  Forbidden text messages from someone that makes me smile.


Happy day after labor day!!!
(and day after bsu made some magic on the field)

wide receiver crush ;)

fantasticness

LOVE this!  Found it here

gotta get away....

Planning a trip is hard.
Especially when I have no money.
And my friends have no money.

I'm DYING to go back to New York.
I want to go meet Sarah's baby and eat In & Out in California.
Vegas.  ahhhh Vegas.

In my quest to make something more out of my life, I have added a second major in order to apparently drag out my college life until I'm 45.  This has required me to take....summer school :(.

I have already finished one 3 week early British Lit class, and I'm one week away from the end of a 5 week Victorian British Lit class.  That still leaves me with math (yuck) and art foundations.  Needless to say, I've created a pretty packed summer for myself. 

School is officially out August 13th.  This leaves me 10, TEN, days of summer freedom, and I am NOT staying in Idaho.  My brain already hurts from reading Frankenstein, Wuthering Heights, Lady Audley's Secret, Dracula, Heart of Darkness, Beowulf, and other assorted plays/poems/math problems.  If I survive the next half of the summer, I think I deserve a vacation. 

I just don't know where to go.....Anyone have a million dollars, or free plane tickets to give away? 

I'm kicking off a mini break this weekend (I do have Sunday off from work - first day off in...???)
To celebrate I watched the ever fabulous Factory Girl and drooled over Hayden Christiansen.  I will leave you all with this nice thought for the weekend...

Love &stuff
:)

11.5 hours and counting...

“But the most exciting, challenging and significant relationship of all is the one you have with yourself. And if you can find someone to love the you you love, well, that's just fabulous.” 

~Carrie Bradshaw

"If we can't live together, then we're going to die alone"

ok here it goes....the day has arrived....big big big deep breath....i'm not sure i remember what life was like before Lost....what am i going to look forward to now???gearing up for the finale....i'm going to need these last 20 hours to figure out life after Lost...can.not.wait!

:)