Muggle Hater (Harry Potter)

because there are so many other things i should be doing...

ummm i just realized that my phone has a "saved messages" feature and there are tons of saved text messages in there.  of mine of course, but since i didn't even know it could do that, i'm not sure how they ended up saved.  let's just say it was awesome to reread some stuff and (because, as previously mentioned, i prefer to textually communicate at all times) embarrassing to remember some of the interesting convo's i've had...here's some of the great one liners i found...out of context so they are even that much better...

*"Pinkberry delivers!"
*"DO IT DO IT DO IT"
*"How is Renaissance homosexuality coming along?"
*"Stop f-ing texting"
*"Santa doesn't bring me food in the middle of October"
*"Should be about noodles.  Or bras"
*"Swimsuit bubble bath.  Just named it"
*"Watch your back and look for my icy stare when I see you"
*"The only one I've ever been to was the naked one"
*"Do I need to talk you into it?"
*"I'm usually not very lucky.  I like to refer to it as skill"
*"You're kinda like yoda to me"
*"I have big hips though"
*"I hate freshmen"
*"I'm just a little guy that's not very tough looking.  You look like you could beat some people"
*"Every girl likes a little slap in the right setting"
*Weird.  Were you just like...dang I miss his pants"


fabulous.

love& stuff~

Someday Girl...

"and I'd be happy to adore him from a distance,

but knowing he adores me from a distance,

makes this hard."

~Stolen by Julie Moffit

As usual I'm defining my current life situations with song lyrics...

I'm reading a book for class right now called Tripmaster Monkey: His Fake Book.  No joke.  That's what it's called.  I'm only on page 14 and it. is. awesome.  I'm so in love with literature right now that all it takes is a really well written sentence to make my eyes well up with tears.  Yes it's true.  I'm a huge book dork.

The narrator has a dream girl that he is waiting to meet.  He calls her Someday Girl.  "O Someday Girl, find him and admire him for his interests.  And dig his allusions.  And laugh sincerely at his jokes."  I get it.  I totally want to be his Someday Girl...or maybe I'm the one looking for a Someday Boy...or maybe I already found him...but probably not. 

There is a Right Now Boy.  Who has become such an important part of my life in the last few years that he has become an important part of me.  He can't be my Someday Boy though and that makes it even harder to know that I'm going to have to be someone else's Someday Girl.  Love sucks.  And it's hard.  But I hear it's supposed to be worth it...I'm learning a HUGE amount of hard life lessons right now.  I'm in the rough stage where I'm still sticking my hand on the stove to test the heat.  I know it's going to burn.  Everybody told me it's going to burn, but I think I have to experience it for myself to really learn my lesson. 

Why is it that I still go through with all of this when I know how it's going to end?  Because he has saved me.  More times than I can count.  More times than he knows.

"Look, in my opinion, the best thing you can do is find a person who loves you for exactly what you are. Good mood, bad mood, ugly, pretty, handsome, what have you, the right person is still going to think the sun shines out your ass. That’s the kind of person that’s worth sticking with." ~Juno.

What you don't know is...

I love going to the dentist.  LOVE it.  Especially when I have a cavity.  It's a good pain.

I hate reading things that are assigned to me.  If you told me I was going to be graded on reading my favorite book, I wouldn't read it.

I love learning.  I cried after I left my last art history class because I knew I would never sit in a classroom and learn about Dutch paintings again.

I crave diet coke like a drug addict craves heroin.  I'm trying hard to quit.  But I'm about to go buy one right now.

I'd rather text someone than call them.  Even before texting existed I hated phone calls.  Texting is the best.

If a boy I like sends me good morning texts or I miss you texts, I basically fall in love.  Basically.

I'm double majoring and I have no idea what I want to be when I grow up.  And I'm pretty sure I'm grown up.  Oops.

I love building forts and having sleepovers and watching 90's chick flicks.  Maybe I haven't quite grown up yet afterall.

I lose interest in a guy if they don't like sports.  I dated a guy who wanted to go see a movie during the last game of the world series.  We aren't dating anymore.

In my house, the Superbowl is bigger than Christmas.  You show up, you dress in the right colors, and you don't speak during the really good parts.  I actually didn't attend any Christmas family events this year.  Nobody noticed.  But I wasn't planning on being home for the Superbowl and I was almost disowned.

I would rather be dirt poor and live in my parents basement but have travelled to every country than to be rich and bored.

I'm listening to Adele's new album right now.  Shoot.  Go get it.

love& stuff :)

check it yo

so i'm not sure about the rest of the country, but my little boise town has had the MOST beautiful autumn ever.  ever.  but, sadly, today i woke up to a thick layer of frost and slushy rotting leaves on the ground.  my favorite time of the year is slowly being replaced but my least favorite time of year.  so in honor of the fantastic weather i have been blessed with...

i made a fall soundtrack! 

shocker.

i basically spent more hours on itunes than i did on homework so this is the inevitable result. 

some old, some new.  they all make me happy :)  and are getting me through some poor decisions i have been making lately.  (i think my problem solving skills are burned out from too many classes, leading me to not think anything through beforehand).  possibly poor decision #1...spending a crap load of money on itunes :)

1.  "Breathe Again" - Sara Bareilles
2.  "My Heart" (accoustic version) - The Perishers
3.  "Begin Again" - Colbie Caillat
4.  "Zebra" - Beach House
5.  "The Park" - Feist...(Where was this song when i lived in NYC???)
6.  "You Can Close Your Eyes" - Carly Simon...(LOOOVE this one)
7.  "Strip Me" - Natasha Bedingfield
8.  "Change of Time" - Josh Ritter
9.  "Birthday" - Kings of Leon...(cuz it was my birthday ;)
10.  "The End" - Allison Weiss
11.  "Overboard" - Ingrid Michaelson
12.  "Skinny Love" - Bon Iver
13.  "Tornado" - Jonsi
14.  "White Blank Page" - Mumford and Sons
15.  "The Outsiders" - Needtobreathe
16.  "Raise Your Glass" - Pink...(this one puts me in a good mood no matter what!)
17.  "Sweet Disposition" - The Temper Trap
18.  "Don't You Wanna Stay" - Jason Aldean w/ Kelly Clarkson...(normally i'm not big into country but this is. so. good.)

Soooo here's to fall!  I love it.  I will miss it when it's gone.  but i know it will be back soon. 

love!!
me

here we go again...

here's the line to the song i'm listening to right now...

"here we go again, I kind of want to be more than friends.  so take it easy on me, I'm afraid you're never satisfied"

Brilliant.

My itunes is better than any psychic. 

Do you ever get that feeling that something is on the verge of happening?  I do, and then it does.  And it usually isn't very good.

The last time I had this feeling was a few years ago.  There were 2 different boys involved.  I wasn't, for the record, dating either one.  No matter what anyone says...There were also 3 different girls.  One of them was me.  And I knew, I just knew, this was all going to blow up in my face.  And it did.  And I was guilty...in a way.  I was NOT dating either of them.  But I wasn't trying very hard to not date them either.

So here's the feeling again.  And since I tend to be right on when it comes to these things, I'm kind of terrified.  And a little excited.  And kind of guilty.  This time there are just 2 boys involved and only one girl.  Me.  I am not, for the record, dating either of them.  But I may be trying hard to.  Or trying hard to date one of them, and the other one is getting caught in the middle.  Here is the problem for me:  I'm not sure which one is which. 

How awful am I??? 

I want to state that one of these boys has hurt me, alot, in the past.  In fact, the next song itunes has given me tonight is also a pretty good match...

"I know i can't take one more step towards you, cuz all that's waiting is regret...I've learned to live, half alive, and now you want me one more time.  And who do you think you are running around leaving scars?  Collecting your jar of hearts, tearing love apart."

I literally feel myself balancing, precariously high, and I know I'm about to fall.  I don't want to lose either one.  But I know that I only want one.  And by only getting one, I will have to lose the other. 

Something big is coming, I can really feel it.
Good thing neither of them live in the same state as me, or eachother for that matter. 

love & stuff...lots of stuff...

:)

lovin...

1.  My Roman history teacher.  Not in that way silly.  He's smart.  Sooo smart.
2.  "Begin Again" by Colbie Caillat -... "This is not the way that it should end, it's the way it should begin..."
3.  Pumpkin Pie pop tarts.  In.love.
4.  Season 1 of Gilmore Girls.  It will always be the best one :)
5.  Having gigantic crushes on doctors, firemen, the fabulously tattooed guy that sits in front of me in Roman history, and the boise state wide receiver.  Who cares that they have no idea I exist?
6.  Jainah.  She's like a real little person now. 
7.  Pistachios.  I have no idea why I never tried them before.  Better than doritos.
8.  OPI nail polish in "the color to watch".  Pretty...
9.  NYX eyeshadow in "flamingo".  It's kind of holographic?
10.  Forbidden text messages from someone that makes me smile.


Happy day after labor day!!!
(and day after bsu made some magic on the field)

wide receiver crush ;)